Waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one’s thoughts ~ Elisabeth Elliot. I recently became aware that waiting on God is not optional, at least not if one wants it to go well with them. God has had me in his waiting room for most of my life without me really understanding that I am to wait until he speaks. I haven’t been previously aware that going it alone is not really an option for a Christian that’s sold out for God.
I have experienced a most intimate walk with Yahweh this last couple of years, and since earlier this year, he has been impressing upon me the importance of waiting on him. I can track this from my tweets which I send out early mornings as I receive revelation during my quiet time in my prayer closet. Yet it’s only this summer in August that I gradually began to understand the assignment. It wasn’t even based on an act of obedience as much as it was simply an intellectual calculation on my part. But once that analysis was made, conclusions drawn, and decisions made, God’s patterns became glaringly obvious to me after the fact. So far, my obedience has really been more incidental than it has been deliberate; he is faithful like that because I have always prayed for him to align my will to his.
I’m not sure why I have always thought that waiting on God is optional. Of course, it is if one thinks they are still in charge of their lives. And God does grant us the free will to shun his purposes for us, and go it alone; yes, he most certainly does. I just don’t know who is brave enough (or foolish enough, like I once was) to actually do so. I’ve been there, done that, and even got the scars to prove it : ) I have gotten tired of waiting on God in the past and gone it alone. It was a ‘testimony’ I shared proudly every time someone tried to tell me about just Christianity -how things had gone well for me once I had left church life behind to make my life choices independent of the encumberments of waiting on and/or relying on God.
You cannot dissuade a man with a testimony, and God forbid if it’s the wrong one, a counterfeit one… Only God himself can get you back on the right path. I still knew enough about God to understand that my so-called testimony was off-brand with his word and his promises; and that no one gets truly blessed by getting off the narrow path of following Christ and onto the wide path that leads to destruction! (Matthew 7:13-14). I should have heeded verses such as Job 20:5 “That the triumphing of the wicked is short, and the joy of the godless momentary”, or Psalm 92:7 “That when the wicked sprouted up like grass, and all who did iniquity flourished, it was only that they might be destroyed forevermore.” God doesn’t sleep on the job, he watches in repose from heaven as we scurry about the business of life, whether we spare him a thought or not. Psalm 11:4 tells us that “the LORD is in his holy temple; the LORD still rules from heaven. He watches everyone closely, examining every person on earth.”In his great mercy and faithfulness, God did get me back on the narrow path supernaturally, and whatever comes from the other side of this journey, only God will deserve the glory, and only he will get the glory.