“No one heals himself by wounding another.” This is a quote by Saint Ambrose of Milan, one of the early Church Fathers from the fourth century (A.D.340 – A.D.397). It resonates with me because I have been on both sides of this quote, the wounded and the one wounding. Truth be told, if we are to be honest, the majority of us are on both sides of this quote at one point or another in our lives. That is why grace and mercy are the most important qualities to have so we can extend them to each other, for we shall all need these at one point in life’s journey.
July has been a somewhat challenging month as I work towards building the temple of my heart for God to dwell in. I’ve had some great wins as well as epic fails that have truly humbled me and brought me down from the lofty heights that pride can take us when we are distracted or over-confident. That is why I love my father; he cares enough to fell us in our pride so he can re-train us to depend fully on him instead of depending on the arm of the flesh, whether it be our own or another’s.
As countless scab-wounds were being inadvertently picked on repeatedly, I found myself wanting to fight my own battles, pointing to what is -for all intents and purposes- a log in my brother’s eye, even as the Lord insists it’s only a speck -sigh… The result is that I’ve been pulled off the battlefield for time-out and a time of reckoning. Wretched man that I am… it is not an easy walk. No sooner do we imagine we’ve mastered it, then we fall flat on our face. It is the Apostle Paul that warns us in 1 Corinthians 10:12 to take heed “So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!”
As humbling as this journey is, I wouldn’t trade it for anything, not for all the gold I’m mining along the way. Our father understands the demoralizing reality of wandering about in the wilderness awaiting directions and instructions, especially after bungling up his plans thus prolonging the wilderness experience. That’s why he gently restores us after a fall, as Paul reminds us to do for one another in Galatians 6:1 “Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault, you who are spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness/gentleness; considering yourself, lest you also be tempted.”
These spiritual growing pains aside, I’m spending a week holed up in a lovely hotel in Times Square NYC with a friend to celebrate my milestone birthday : ) I’m still keeping up with my Bible study classes even as I prepare myself for whatever future the Lord might have in store for me. I’m happy. I’m at peace. I’m learning more about the Kingdom and I’m growing in my faith. For every one-step-back, I’m taking two-steps-forward by God’s grace. I’m grateful to be growing in the areas that matter beyond this life as we perceive it. Stay with me, won’t you? The journey continues -xoxo