This season marks four years since I started this blog. I’d had the intention for several years and eventually took the plunge and launched Grey Dynasty in the fall of 2015. Over the years, I’ve blogged on sustainable fashion, travel, and matters of faith and lifestyle, sharing my musings aimed at inspiring us all to live a life daringly imagined, as the tagline reads, courtesy of Mr. Grey. I’ve enjoyed sharing bits of myself here and I’m quite content that a piece of me lives on the internet, for indeed that was my goal when I first started -to leave a footprint somewhere, however small. Until the launching of this blog, this Maya Angelou quote distressed me deeply: There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you. I had many stories inside me, and they were all untold; it was agony. Now I come here weekly and tell my stories, and my heart is at rest. Today I can say I sleep easier because I write.
By God’s grace, I’m in an exciting new season of my life, and as the year hastens to its close, I couldn’t be happier with the way things are. My son is happy, healthy and thriving -it’s all a mother could ask for during these pesky young adult years of their lives. Earlier this fall I was surrounded by the most loving family God could ever have sent my way. I loved coming home to my sister’s warm hugs (she gives the best hugs) and the girls’ cheer and laughter. I enjoyed the quiet spirit of my brother-in-law as he walks softly through life making room for the girls he so dearly loves. Their coming was one of my greatest blessing this year. My job is going great and the opportunities it avails me are endless. Yet my greatest joy comes from the Lord and how well He has loved me. I’ll concede that it’s been a rough year, and yet I haven’t felt this loved, cherished or secure in a really long time.
Veritably, it’s in times of adversity that we get to know who we really are. When faced with opposition, we are exposed to ourselves in ways we would never discover during times of peace. My crisis taught me who I really am and what I truly value. My parents raised us with biblically-ground principles and values that have withstood the test of time and proven to be real anchors whenever in doubt of how to act or react. To their credit, their teachings held during my crisis.
Turning to my heavenly Father sealed for me how I was to conduct myself as my crisis boiled over. In the face of crippling pain overlaid with rage, I have felt nothing for another, but love and compassion, turning the other cheek when faced with hard choices, giving the coat along with the tunic, walking the extra mile… Even these many months along, the raging is yet to cease, but turning to my Father availed me the power of the Holy Spirit without whom my quest for an inner peaceful resolution would have been in vain. His statures and ordinances are clear and purposed for our protection and our peace of mind. He promises that if we leave it up to Him, he will turn it all around for our good. I did and He continues to work all things out for my good. In the end, my parents’ teachings held and God’s word proved true. In the end, love won. Love will always win.
Of this I’m certain: there’s nothing good in me but for Christ. This realization is pointing me in a resolute direction that this blog has already taken since spring time. I know full well how I intend to spend the remainder of my days here on earth, loving this God that saved me in my most desperate time, a Father that suffered the indignation of pursuing me relentlessly to save my soul from certain destruction. How can I not but spend my days seeking His face? For in the end, it was His love that saved me.
On that note, I think we can all agree it’s time for a spring-cleaning of sorts. As this new season in my life takes shape, it’s time for the blog to evolve along with us. Grey Dynasty has served us well in the past, yet as my Father is making all things new in my life, this too must be renewed, redefined, refined, and rebranded.
In the next few weeks I will be archiving about one-third of my old posts. These will be posts that I consider ‘compromised’ in that they speak of a vague higher-power without necessarily leading to the God of heaven. Knowing Him as intimately as I do now, I want to present Him here in His full glory as He continues to reveal himself, not as an ambiguous reference or a shadowy obscure figure. It is in James 1:17 that we are told that in Him there is no variableness or shadow of turning.
My Father is not a shadowy figure at all, Psalm 104:2 reveals Him as the Lord who wraps himself in light as with a garment. We can be found by Him if we yield ourselves to Him (Come near to God and He will come near to you – James 4:8), and He will be found by us if we seek Him with all our heart (You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart – Jeremiah 29:13).
As I move forward with my life hand in hand with my beloved, I am continually learning to let Him guide my steps and direct my path. In a song accompanied by stringed instruments, I too sing along with the prophet Habakkuk (3:19) “The LORD gives me strength. He makes my feet as sure as those of a deer, and he helps me stand on the mountains.” In my next post, I will introduce you to the new blog. I pray you stay with me as our journey continues. Ms. Grey ღ