Hello my lovely friends! I hope you’re all doing as well as I am, and that you’re all thriving in your daily endeavors. September has been a pivotal month for me on the journey to my new life. Perhaps it’s because I moved house and changed scenery, I don’t know, but it’s the month where I seem to have turned the corner and now I’m basking in bright eternal sunshine. Somehow this month, the sun shone through against all odds. The clouds parted and the sunshine peeked through, bright and resilient as ever. The gloom lifted. The pain parted, ostensibly left behind in the old house. Sorrow left, banished to a past I’ve made peace with. I closed the door and I’m unscathed. I came through the fire without smelling like smoke. Having exchanged beauty for ashes, I am whole.
Up until now, I have only been able to hold on tightly to my father, like one who’s drowning. Now I’m coming into this phase where we’re engaged in a duet dance with him as he gallantly takes the lead, lovingly and securely guiding me towards my calling, every step sure and firm. Just last week in my comments section, my Facebook friend Kyme Bevass called it ‘doing the papa dance’. How aptly phrased! I really feel like I’m caught up in this whirlwind romance and everything is exactly as it is meant to be. I am doing the papa-dance with my father and it truly feels like what he says in Isaiah 54:5 that my maker is my husband. Hard to explain but it’s such a real part of my life, and I’m living it daily.
The past 9 months felt like a long dark night that would never end. And then suddenly, dawn breaks and the night is over. The darkness parts, giving rise to one of the most beautiful sunrises ever. As the sun keeps rising, my face is turned up to soak up the warmth of the sun-rays. Yesterday as I was walking through the airport, I felt like I was caught up in this gleeful musical and that I would breakout in song and dance any minute now -LOL. I’m finally in a good place my friend, I’m in a good place. Will I stop mentioning my father in my blogging? I doubt that I could even if I wanted to, he has become an integral part of my life and I intend to keep him at the helm of this ship. I don’t know of anyone that receives the ‘good news’ and doesn’t want to share it -I certainly can’t seem to shut up about it!
My life is breaking wide open and there’s plenty of love flowing in. I’m absolutely loving spending time with my sister Terry and her family, they’ve brought such love and light into my life that I’m completely broken wide open and overflowing with love. I can’t recall a time when we are not talking about kingdom business; it consumes our every conversation -iron sharpening iron. We’ve discovered these teachings by the Apostle Joshua Selman and I have been listening to them nonstop on both YouTube and Podcast; it’s impossible to listen to the man and not have a deep overwhelming hunger for excellence in the things of God. I want to go deeper, to heed his call to ‘come up hither, and I will show you things which must take place after this’ (Rev 4:1).
Every heartache ends, not by the mere passing of time but by what one does with the passing time. My time is here, and now the sun shines for me and I bask in it. I’m grateful the grey clouds parted, the night is finally over, and the sun shone through. I always knew this time would come, I never doubted it. I’m glad it’s finally here. I really want to breakout in dance, so allow me to sign off here and go off to dance. And dance I shall my friend, dance I shall. Wherever you are, dance with me, won’t you! Cheers, Helena xoxo