Hi Fam, I hope you’re all keeping well, enjoying the favorable weather we’ve been blessed with. It’s been sweltering hot on some days and I’m absolutely loving it. My son got back from Tokyo and Kyoto and we have been spending some lovely time together; I tend to take him with me to work often as it’s easy to cross over from The Netherlands to Belgium to our old life there.
My Father has been training me for battle and it’s been the strangest most unusual set of tactics and stratagem He’s had me employ. “He trains my hands for battle and my fingers for warfare” Psalm 144:1. In a three-part series, I’m going to try and detail all the gold I’m mining from His word and how this gold has made my journey all the more meaningful and rewarding.
When we fight like the world does, an eye for an eye (Matt 5:38) is not an uncommon sentiment, anything less is often considered a sign of weakness. Yet the Bible says that we do not wage war the way the world does in the flesh, for our weapons are not carnal but spiritual. Instead, our spiritual weapons have divine power to demolish strongholds, tear down arguments and every presumption that sets itself up against the knowledge of God (2 Corinthians 10:3).
I finally got back home end of June to find that my crisis had concluded in my absence since I had opted out of the process. The apostle Paul tells us in 1 Corinthians 6:7 “The very fact that you have lawsuits among you means you have been completely defeated already. Why not rather be wronged? Why not rather be cheated?”; clearer words have not been spoken.
I chose this less-traveled road as I could find no scriptural basis for participating in a process I neither initiated nor wanted, and as such had no inclination to be a part of. My Father’s word says it’s better that we let ourselves be taken advantage of, than to drag each other to court. For after all, we have been called to peace. “If possible, so far as it depends on you, be at peace with all men” (Romans 12:18). I could walk away from it all because “where your treasure is, there your heart will be also” (Matt 6:21). “I have fixed my eyes firmly on the Lord, with Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken” (Ps. 16:8).
My Father graced me with unimaginable peace of mind in the face of such great rage, torment, and pain; I remained covered with His feathers, hidden under His wings where I found refuge, and where His faithfulness became my shield and rampart (Ps 91:4). He has kept me as the apple of His eye; hidden under the shadow of His wings (Ps 17:8). He’s remained God and He got me through the whole ordeal with grace and dignity. And He continues to sit on His throne, unmoved by human jostling, unperturbed by human maneuvering, unshaken in His resolve to bring about His will that I grow in faith and learn to trust only Him, utterly and completely.
Psalm 18:34 says “He teaches my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by my arms.” 2 Chronicles 20:17 posits: “You will not need to fight in this battle. Stand firm, hold your position, and see the salvation of the Lord on your behalf. Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed. Tomorrow go out against them, and the Lord will be with you.”
You’ll never guess what that “going out against them” means! It means to praise, it means to worship, it means to bow down, to wait patiently, to hold still, to maintain peace, to listen for His voice as we walk, “whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Isaiah 30:21. That is His whole battle strategy; and it really is so much better His way. As I said, it has been the strangest most unusual set of tactics and stratagem my Father has had me employ.
I am shut up and closed in (Psalm 88:8). The Lord has hemmed me in behind and before, and He has laid His hand upon me (Psalm 139:5). The Lord is singing over me, quietening my heart with His love, calming all my fears, quelling my excitement, rejoicing over me with joyful songs, taking delight in me with gladness, refreshing my life with His love (Zephaniah 3:17), assuring me that no longer will I be called ‘Forsaken’, nor my land named ‘Desolate’; for the Lord will take delight in me, and my land will be His bride (Isaiah 62:4).
I have loved the best I knew how at the time; of that I’m proud. I was loved well; of that I’m grateful. Moving forward, I feel truly blessed that I am loved by my maker, the Lord Almighty is His name. The Holy One of Israel is my Redeemer; the God of all the earth. He has called me back like a wife deserted and distressed in spirit — a wife who married young, only to be rejected. With deep compassion He will bring me back. With everlasting kindness, the Lord my Redeemer will have compassion on me” (Isaiah 54:5-8).
Like Moses said in Exodus 14:14 to the frightened children of Israel at the Red Sea crossing, the Lord is speaking to me at my crossroads crossing too. He is saying “Do not be afraid, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today; the Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” This I know, that “through God we shall do valiantly” (Psalm 60:12). My heart rests in knowing that “He knows the way that I take, and when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold (Job 23:10). Cheers, Helena xoxo